Today was the first snowfall in Lowell, MA (not counting some flurries we had a couple weeks ago). I was really planning on being able to work from home but that unfortunately did not happen. I was not prepared to clear my car of snow, much less drive in the snow. But I was also not expecting to be so overwhelmed by the situation. It was actually kind of scary that I let it affect me so much.
I have moments every once in a while where I miss living in Colombia but I think today I missed it the most. I would have given anything to be in Medellin on a motorcycle in the rain instead of driving in the snow this morning. Luckily the drive was not bad, it wasn't bad at all for the way I was reacting. But I think it was just reality sinking in. I've been working now for about a month and a half and it has felt really good. I feel like I'm where I am supposed to be right now. That's why I thought it was odd that I was so freaked out this morning.
It goes to show that I'm still adjusting to my life here again and that any day can bring about a new realization. You'd think that I wouldn't even need to readjust to living in a place where I grew up and lived most of my life but for some reason I do, and it hasn't been the easiest. Feeling out of place and restless while not working, the first months back were definitely hard. There are even some moments where I think readjusting here has been harder than it was in Colombia, but then I think about getting lost in Envigado and that all goes away, haha. Either way this has been harder than I expected.
But I'm glad I was able to get past this and hopefully the snow won't freak me out anymore after today. Now that I am back I am ready to focus on other bucket list items. Living in Colombia was a huge one to cross off and I am so thankful that I was able to do it. But it wasn't the only thing on the list. I have a lot more to do, a lot more to learn, and a number of places to visit.
I'm ready for many more adventures to come!
